Me One and Me Two
I feel a little bit like I'm torn into two pieces. There is Sarah who fits into the more charismatic circle of Christianity, the one who struggles with putting heart over head, the same one who sometimes feels the need to speak circumlocutions around the other Sarah who loves traditional (aka "reformed") doctrine and struggles with putting head over heart. Both Sarahs are stubborn.

This topic has been one I've been fighting for a year now. Here's the rift between the two shards of Me:
People who believe reformed doctrine generally don't believe that God uses the more "miraculous" spiritual gifts in these latter days.
People who believe that the Spirit still moves the same way He did during the lives of the disciples (such as "tongues" "prophecy" and "interpretation") generally don't hold to reformed doctrine.

Guess what? I believe both. And therefore I'm caught in the middle, much like the trapezist who is caught midair between rings. In American Christianity, the ring of how I believe the Spirit works doesn't reach quite far enough to the ring that believes God has a sovereign will for our lives and all that that belief entails.

Is there a way to make them reach? Or must I forever hang here suspended in conflict over whether to choose one or the other?